Ho-ho-ho-li-day!!!

EVERYONE IN CONS SEEMS SO BUSY RUNNING AROUND TAKING CASES ETC AND HERE I AM YAWNING AWAY OUTSIDE THE LIBRARY WAITING FOR LUNCH!

Good thing is, i'm FREE! Free from LAN (well, not exactly since i still hv an individual assignment to do during the Hol), free from Prostho work since i hv successfully issued my denture (with much help from Dr prathi, aka the hands of God). Although, all of us actually hv 2 assignments for community dentistry and the class test to sit for right after the Hol, Im positive, that NOONE BOTHERS TO DO THOSE WORK because it's XMAS AND NEW YEAR!! WOOHOO!!!!!

Sorry for my excessive enthusiasm. Im really excited to go home, meet some old friends and shop for xmas gifts. I hv been smiling to myself the entire morning, and all the xmas songs that I've been hearing over the radio and caroline's singing really lift my xmas n holiday spirit. *grins*

I better get back to cons before they notice that I've been MIA the whole morning.

HAPPY HOLIDAY PEOPLE!
YAYYYYYY! ^ ^

Much love,
Jamie.N

The mind cannot long act the role of the heart.

Last weekend went past like a breeze. I was home, but never got the chance to spend time with my family. Saturday morning was the swimming comp.

I was dead reluctant to swim; Green team had no other option but to recruit me (someone who wouldn't die in the pool) to complete the relay event. I was extreeeeemely slow, but I managed to swim across the 50m pool. It is quite embarrassing, but it's not the first time I humiliate myself anyway. No big deal, I suppose?

That evening, Lois, Jo and I headed down to KL. Lois missed a turn and we got lost. Ended up in Setapak. Lois looked worried and all, but Jo and I were just laughing. We finally got home, said hello to my parents and headed out again for Pavillion. Hmmmm, I suck with directions. Lois' not from KL. Soooo...I was just following my intuition and the road signs (of course) to get there. Lucky thing we managed to find out way. (I'm not too bad after all). My first time at La Bodega. It's a Spanish restaurant, famous for tapas. I've always thought that tapas is tako (mexican). Tapas actually means snacks. Yummy....and very filling. (As usual, Lois and I will NEVER finish our food when we eat together, we don't even know why).



I guess I've put on another few kgs in that 3 days in KL. Home sweet home. KL food IS GOOD. Those who think otherwise obviously don't know where to go!! And yeah, Lois declared that the best Asam Laksa is in KL, not Penang Kek Lok Si whatever. (prolly even the KL ppl don't know abt the asam laksa stall which i normally go to, trust me it's awesome!)




My college night is around the corner. Somehow I was put to be in charge of the Sponsorship and Lucky draw, together with few other people. We started off with calling the companies from a list given by our seniors.

The list contains the companies who had sponsored us before. However, this time most companies refuse to contribute. It's either we're not convincing or the economy is indeed that bad. Lots of boring calls and then we moved on to going from shop to shop. We went to Raja Uda and the street opposite Sunway Carnival Mall. Some showed interest. Some just can't wait for us to finish off and go. I honestly HATE doing this. It's like begging for money. The worse is Penang ppl speak hokkien/mandarin. I don't know Hokkien at all, and I can't speak Mandarin to save my life. I had no choice tho, coz some of them can't understand English. I had to mix mandarin with english and I sounded like a retard.

"Wo de college yo yi ger college night and wo men need sponsor. Ke yi gei cash or voucher or coupon or merchandise. Ni men interested ma?"


I actually have no idea if they understood what I said. Anyway, I managed to convince some shops to sponsor us (those which I spoke in English). The feeling of success is sugar sweet. *licks

There's this hair saloon where I went to perm my hair abt 4 or 5 months back. That was my first and last time there. I went back this time to ask for sponsorship. Turned out the guy remembers me. We spoke for a lil while and I left with quite a number of vouchers. That night I felt like my hard work has paid off. Couldn't stop grinning. Satisfied. Plain happiness.



Whenever I had time I'd be thinking of a way to get money to buy the lucky draw gifts. In theory class. Before bed. Or in the middle of a discussion. Finally, I thought of fund raising sale at the games. I became the "canteen aunty" who bought, cooked and sold sandwiches, sausages and drinks at the track and field event as well as basketball match. Managed to gather a reasonable amount of money which would contribute to the lucky draw gifts. (I was shopping for the gifts at IKEA last Monday, it was so fun! I really wouldn't mind winning any of those things since I obviously picked what I like. Shhhh!)

To my friends who sponsored, THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH for helping me out!



Hopefully, the PIDC closing night 2011 will be a success. (Can't wait!) *winks

Because life is random..

It has been a while since I had a NIGHTMARE!


The last time was during my exams. I was telling my housemate, Cyn Tee some ghost stories. Actually, i wasn't even telling her anything. I just mentioned that I've heard of some ghost stories in seaview. I didn't feel comfortable elaborating because I knew i had to burn the midnight oil, all alone that night, or every night during my exams actually.


So that night I went to bed at 3am. My alarm was set to 5am. Not long after i was asleep, I felt sth on my right arm and a really coarse voice murmuring by my right ear. I couldn't move, scream nor even wake up. It felt so reaaalll! I woke up before my alarm went off, which was pretty rare because I normally would have to snooze it. When I was awake, I spent a couple of minutes figuring whether it was real or a dream. Then I realized that I was probably more afraid of failing my exams than of 'those', so who cares whether it's real or not!
Yea, it was a really miserable exam week. But I'm glad my effort has paid off. :)


This morning I had another nightmare... I dreamt of COLLEGE! >.< It was crowded and we were all rushing for class. It was a short scene, but enough to give me a heart attack. In reality, I've got like no OMR cases because of late submission of case reports. I actually took 1 long case and 2 short cases during my 3rd year but they won't be accepted anymore. Imagine going into 4th year with ZERO cases. Im as good as the 3rd year freshmen. As for Orthodontic dept, Kamini, Roselyn and I enjoyed the 3 weeks of liberty to the max. We reported in, stayed in college to chit chat for a bit and Chau-ed to sleep at home. Best 3 weeks of our 3rd year, even better than the 3 weeks in community dentistry since we actually had some work to do in CD. Anyway, bitter sweet bitter sweet. Here comes the bitter part. Really bitter. *spits* There's this new rule stating that we're supposed to hand in all the wire bendings before entering 4th year. Really screwed. I actually stayed back after my finals to learn how to bend the clasps and I even brought them back to KL. Haven't worked on them yet though half my Hol is already gone. Lets see if they'll return to penang untouched. Oh yea, another part of my nightmare this morn was a scene in CBN. It really upsets me sometimes thinking abt how I didn't graduate from Convent though I spent 4yrs there. All my friends, posts and fav school traditions...left hanging just like that. My jing bangs... Sigh.

Buena suerte~

I have reached the upper limit of my 100% BMI. Over which I'll be considered obese! Omg. My weight has always fluctuated pretty easily, but I've never been this heavy, ever! Everyone loses weight during exam period, Im probably the only one in this world who manages to put on so much of weight in this period. All my relatives are saying that Im chubby. Is it that obvious???? I thk i really need to exercise. Oh gosh. Just the thought of it already tires me.


I was wondering, why do people spend so much of money buying "numbers". Toto, da ma cai, etc. I started helping my grandma buy numbers long before i reached 18. I had to act mature, look fearless, but deep down i was always afraid of getting caught for gambling illegally. Oh well. Sacrifice for grandma. How noble can i be? Haha.

My grandma spends abt a hundred each time buying numbers. I always wonder how ppl can spend so much of money to buy a few pieces of paper. They're literally papers...only. She always tells me, she's old already, so just let her have a little bit of fun. Well i guess this is her entertainment. Gotta respect her 'hobby':)

Devika posted on Fb saying that she thinks our results Will be out today. Everybody must be freaking out now. I keep imagining how I'll react if i see the word 'fail' in my result. How am i going to tell my parents? Should i keep it from them, at least till Im done crying and ready to share my misery? >.< no no no no! I really want to pass. I need to pass!:( Alright, I can't write more. Mom is bugging me get off HER lap top. (I left my lap top with Ming) So, Chau people. WISH ME LUCKKKKK!!

there's no need reason for certain things...its just meant to be..

Ppl used to tell me that i hold the broom weirdly. I probably still do. I don't know.

I used to be involved in so many arguments abt how women shouldn't be the one doing house chores because they work these days and since they're the weaker gender, men should take over instead. Bla bla bla. Unbelievably, house chores is part of my life now. I grew up with a maid, not having to worry abt anything other than studies. I probably only held a broom once in every 2 years, when my maid's contract ended and we had to wait a couple of days before the new one arrived.

It all started in Argentina. We didn't have a maid so we had to take turns to help out with the chores. My goodness. I never knew it could be so tiring. Suddenly the house seemed SO BIG. I rather study for exams than to do house chores. Washing dishes was miserable because i used to take an hour to do it, while my entire family would be happily watching tv in the living room. In India we used to have cleaners so the was cool. Now, living in penang. Its back to doing house chores. I guess if u don't make it a habit, cleaning could be rather dreadful. And disgusting. I suppose I'm pretty ok with it now.

I used to sweep with the fan on, and wondered why it was so difficult. Haha how silly. Also, i never dared to touch the food residue on the sink. Squeezing the mop with bare hands??? Oh well, i've learnt to do those things now. Yr hands can be washed right? What's the big deal.

Last night i was suddenly missing the times when i could just walk off the dining table right after dinner. My sis and I were hanging ard the table for a couple of hours talking and we moved to the living room, still talking. When we were both finally sleepy, we decided to head upstairs for a hot shower before bed. HOWEVER, we realized that those dishes are still waiting for us! So regardless of how tired and lazy we felt, we dragged our feet twds the kitchen and cleaned up those mess. Life is pretty different now. Chores chores chores.

I woke up this morning feeling so uncomfortable. My tummy was so cramped. Still cramping actually. Some of u might know what that indicates. Anyway, so now i hope my friends don't pick any of these few days to go to sunway lagoon because i REALLY don't wanna miss the fun! :(

I brought home some story books and ortho wire bending work but never laid a finger on them yet. I wonder if I'll ever do. Those are for emergency time, e.g if i ever feel bored. But there's astro here with all channels, and good internet connection, seriously Jamie, do u thk U'll bend wires? *I need to get some work done before my 4th year! Screams*

Which reminds me, I need to first pass my 3rd year!:S Some said the result Will be out today. I doubt it. Probably by Friday? I really really really hope i could pass! >.< sigh..

All the best to those who're awaiting results.....all the best, Jamie.

I couldn't resist...

your musical fall,
along with the cooling breath,
lure me to where you stand..
I can hear you calling out for me,
You soothing RAIN!

Between us lies a GIGANTIC wall..
I couldn't climb,
but i can certainly read.
all over, the grafitti says...

"STOP DREAMING &
Get Back To Your Books!"

The fate of a lazy student during exam period~

If only u knew...

What a day.

2 and a half hours of night sleep; from 4.45am-7.15am.
Jumped off the bed, a short half an hour of washing up and getting dressed for the unwelcoming general medicine paper.
My eyes could hardly open, but they didn't have much of an option.
When i was writing the paper earlier today, it hit me that today's the birthday an old friend. Ytd was also the bday of a very important person to me. So was 2 Sundays back.
I feel deeply sorry that i don't have the time nor credit in my cell phone (for overseas calls) to give these people a good bday wish and some catching up.



Dear beloved childhood friend Daphne,
loving pet brother wei hsien &
dearly missed Luis,


A very happy (belated) birthday, from a friend far across the oceans.

There's so much going on in our lifes right now, that at times we forget to reach out for each other and convey our love. Im sorry that i suck at keeping in touch. I can assure u though, that i do think of and miss you guys from time to time.

The times we spent together, the laughters we had and all the silly things we did; how i wish they're still here.

Lots of love,
Jamie

Dear Jamie..

Exams. Farewell. Financial crisis. Bad hair days. Meals.

There're like a million of things bothering you.
There always will be.
So many things to do with so little time left.
I wonder if you can even make it through.
Somehow things always fall into place in the very end.
Luck luck luck.
I wish it works for you again this time.
If God didn't exist, you'd have dropped out long back.

P.s. Don't take things for granted. God only help those who help themselves.

Eat. Love. Pray.


Love,
Jamie

Once upon a time..

I vaguely rmb how things were btw us. It was perhaps once in a blue moon when u did come across my mind. I've always been occupied with too much. Much more than i can or should handle. But one fine day, i recklessly stumbled upon yr picture, one which tells me that u've finally let it all go. Perhaps we've both done so some time ago, but witnessing it with my own eyes stings a little. I couldn't help reminiscing the good ol' times we once shared. The relationship we built, short yet so promising. I never wanted to look back, as the fact that it could never come back always slaps me in the face. I always tell myself, don't cry because its over, smile because it happened. I used to look at our pictures every now and then. I haven't done so in ages. The other day as i was looking at the picture of u and yr lover, i accidently saw tiny icons of our pictures on the side bar. I stared at them for a tiny while. I never had the courage to click on them. I didn't want to allow old memories to fill me up again, leaving me in pain at the end of the day. I wish, i really really wish i could be there on the day you exchange vows, as this is one promise i've made when we were still close. I most probably would have to break it, for the simple reason that i can never afford the flight ticket. Whatever it is, i wish i will always be one person u'll never wipe out completely off yr memory, because, i know i can never do so with you. Its better to have loved and lost, than never have loved at all. Many years have past, yet I'm still standing by this principle.


Love is everywhere. Why bother dwelling on the past, when u have the present to live, the future to hope.

Subway

Simple, yet irresistible.

It's obviously overpriced, but why do we still go for it?
The most expensive things u could find in the burgers are only the meat (pathetic amount of ham slices/meatballs/chicken meat) and 2 thinly sliced cheese which are pretty small in size too.
Alright, the bread could be expensive, I don't know. But all the other ingredients are cheap!


Vege:
Lettuce
Onions
Tomatoes
Cucumbers
Olives (maybe this is expensive)
Jalapenos
Pickles

Sauces:
Mayonnaise
Olive oil
Vinegar
Mustard
Sweet onion
BBQ sauce



So, tell me, why does it cost so much??

I love Subway soooooo much, I wish it could be more economical.
At least then I could make it my regular food!!

Here's how I like my Subway.

Bread: Parmesan oregano (cheesy with a tinge of Italian herb)
Size: 6 inches is always not enough but i don't thk i can finish 1 foot, nor even afford it
Meat: chicken or turkey, because (darn it) I can't eat beef!
Vege: jalapenos, olives and pickles are compulsory (they make yr burger taste so heavenly!!!!) lettuce is to fill up the space. Tomatoes, cucumber and onions make my burger too bulky, without improving the taste so don't bother.
Sauce: I love it tasty, so I'd basically put in all the sauces. Olive oil and vinegar in particular, I think, make the burger taste really good.



I'm sure we can all make these burgers at home, since the ingredients are easily available in the supermarket.

Maybe one day, I'll bring Subway to home. <3

Up and down

It has been some time since i found sth i wanna share.
I'm currently posted in pedo, dealing with kids. I love watching how the doctors deal with them.
It's almost like they know what the kids are thinking.
All their tricks and intentions. Last Friday i was impressed with how Dr nagendran stopped a 5 yr old girl from crying and he managed to make her sit obediently. She was cooperative throughout
Her treatment. All he did was speaking professionally to her,in a stern yet comforting manner. I can tell that he really likes kids. He looks at them and smiles so happily. I have never seen him smile, not until recently when i got posted in this department, but only when he's ard kids.i treated my first patient last Friday. He is extremely tiny, cute and cooperative, tho a lil too shy. Can't wait to observe, learn and handle more kids, tho some could really be pain staking.

On a lighter note, i finally got my license. Driving test was scary but i'm so glad that everything went smoothly.:)
I won't be updating my blog much as i'll be busy studying for finals. Lets hope that works.

Head or Tail?

I currently look like a dead fish.

Was contemplating whether to post a picture of me right now, but I thk it'll be stupid to do that.

I always sneeze when i'm deprived of sleep.

Ytd my syndrome came to it's worst and my nose felt like it was coming off.

These few days in KL is extremely fun.

I'm back for a dental conference in KLCC convention center with a big bunch of PIDC students.

I'm hosting 2 of my classmates, and travelling ard KL with them is so much of fun!

Been shopping a little, bought a new phone (finally) and got to see my family, though very minimal.

Sometimes we reach a crossroad and get indecisive.

Whatever choice we make, we feel like we could miss out some things.

I guess there's hardly a right or wrong decision.

It's just how we walk the path we've picked.

I often flip a coin when I can't decide whether to go for sth or not.

People often tell me that important matters have to be taken into our own hands.

To me, everything has pros and cons.

Mostly it's 50 - 50.

When I can't decide, I let god decide.

Mayb it's a way to make myself feel better when things go wrong, because I never actually make a choice.

I leave it to fate.

Yes, fate, I do believe in it.

Just when I lose Hope, Hope comes for me.

There are moments where I'm lost for words.

Confused. Indecisive.

Fickle.

Selfish. Irrational.

Weak.



I know I'm noone to this world.

But I'm grateful to know that I'm the world to some people.



Do you know me?

It's silly and out of tune,

yet I like it this way.

It puts a smile on my face on a dreadful Monday morning. =)

The beauty of imperfection.

Shop For Perfume

If you're a perfume lover,

If you enjoy different scents everyday,

and most importantly,

If you're a little tight on your budget,

You're here on the right site.

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Chemical properties: 100% alcohol free, pure perfume oil

Its roller property eases the application as well as avoid wastage in the form of aerosols.

 Small and convenient to keep in you purse!



Besides being good for own use, SENSES also serves as a perfect gift for all occasions.

Be it your lover, friends, parents, teachers, relatives or just someone you appreciate,

perfume is always a good choice of gift as a token of love, gratitude, apology or reward.

There are 16 scents for women, 5 for men.

Each bottle costs RM12.90.

A set of 8 costs RM80.

The box costs additional RM2.

Mix and match,

create a box of your favourite perfumes!

Code	Scent
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2	Be Delicious, Shine DKNY
3	Chanel 5, Chanel
4	Diamonds, Emporio Armani
5	Euphoria, Calvin Klein
6	Envy Me, Gucci
7	Fantasy, Britney Spears
8	Flora, Gucci
9	Flower, Kenzo
10	Guess Pink, Guess
11	Happy, Clinique
12	Hugo, Hugo Boss
13	Jadore, Christian Dior
14	Issey Miyake, Issey Miyake
15	Miracle, Lancome
16	Tommy Girl, Tommy Hilfiger



Code	Scent
17	Dunhill London, Dunhill
18	Eternity, Calvin Klein
19	One Million, Paco
20	Polo Black, Ralph Lauren
21	Hugo, Hugo Boss

If you're interested, kindly contact me for testers.

These intoxicating scents are truly irrisistable.

For more information, feel free to enquire. =)

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If you're not in Penang, I can post the perfumes to you.

Postage fee to be beared by customers.

Sabah: RM8.80

Sarawak: RM8.20

Peninsula: RM5.65

Growing up

Today I see the need for ample reading.

I attended to an inquisitive patient who bombarded me with a million questions.

"Which toothbrush should I use" - patient

"Medium is good. Hard toothbrushes cause tooth abrasion, it's not good for yr teeth" - Me

"Why do they produce hard toothbrush then?"

*speechless* "Just as a variety...to give people the options to choose from.." (a really senseless answer)

"Why do I get toothache?" - same patient

"Maybe it's because you have a decay, and you left it so it progressed deeper."

"But the dentist yesterday said my teeth are fine."

*brain storming* "Then it's probably because you never did scaling regular enough, so the calculus accumulates on your teeth, pushing yr gums down. So eventually you feel pain."

*Patient seemed convinced*

Today is the first time in a long time since I wore full formal clothing. I feel as if I'm reborn ed. It's like I'm starting all over again. Back to the newbie who obeys the dress code. And dressing so smartly, I bumped into the Johnsons couple (missionaries from the states) for the first time in NB tower. I'm glad they didn't see me in my sloppy clothing. Sister Johnson enquired about her chipped off filling on the front tooth (11). She asked if she could just glue it back, but unfortunately she can't. She's going to the dental clinic tomorrow to fix an appointment. She was so worried that we wouldn't do a good job because it's her front tooth. We assured her and she left with much relief. I was told that she failed to contact me 2 days back. I guess it's my phone. It hasn't been working well recently. Much apologies to those who tried but failed to contact me. If her appointment is next week, she'd see me in the clinic. I'm posted to Conservstive and Endodontic starting next week.=)

I really suck at resisting temptations.

I promised myself 3 pieces of M&M when I reached out for it.

I managed to push it away for 5 mins but I'm now having the entire bottle in my hand.

Chocolate = Pimples

But it tastes SO GOOD!=(

If only I had better discipline.



I wish otherwise, but with the flow I go.

Letting go

marks a new beginning,

it symbolizes

strength and enlightenment.

People walk in and out of our lives.

Some choose to stay,

some walk out unnoticeable,

while the others, leave their footprints behind.
As much as one's memory can hold,
everything fades with time.
Everything.

Sometimes it's not the decision that matters, it's the intepretation.

It has been days since I've wanted to blog, but never gotten the chance to go abt it. Sometimes when you procrastinate too much, you tend to lose the interest. I just deleted my entire draft as whatever written days back is no longer how I feel presently. Nothing is permanent, as the Buddha teaching says.

Looking back at my old writings makes me realize that I've actually changed quite a bit. Sometimes we really do need to be reminded of the past to reflect who we are today. Honestly speaking, I do not quite like who I've become. I don't know how, why or when I've became this way, but I certainly do not enjoy being the person I am currently. I feel so distant from my inner self. From the person I once was. From who I've always wanted to be.

People do change with time. It is inevitable. However, I'm sure there must be a way to modify these changes.

Jun Shen was kind enough to be my patient.
I was performing hand scaling on him. Satisfactory treatment, though I took a lil long. =)

Andrew took over with ultrasonic scaling.

Andrew's a left hander so he had to pull the entire control panel to the other side.
I'm beginning to worry for myself.

Yvonne came to Penang for the weekend. We had some really good time together, spent too much of money and ate like there's no tomorrow.

Sausages. Too costly.

Extremely good carbonara.

Pork knuckles. Huge.

Chong Ming figuring out how to tackle the meat.

Pork ribs. Too bony.

Healy Mac's, in Straitquay.

Mansion 69

Seafood at Bayan Lepas.

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I may not be the best friend, but I'm one of out the million who cares.
Happy 22nd Birthday. =)



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Tell me and I forget.

Teach me and I remember.

Involve me and I learn.

- Benjamin Franklin