Why women are stupid sometimes.

Premenstrual syndrome (PMS)

It is something most women face monthly. Some men might think this is an excuse for us women to behave unreasonably. Unfortunately, the way these hormones make us feel is beyond our control. Irritability. Depression. Mood swings. Fatigue. It's not something we can snap out of just like that.

About a week ago, I came home from yoga tired. As I was washing up, my bf was complaining about how he had to dispose the garbage bags in the kitchen as they were infested with ants. And went on with all the other things he did that day. I was so irritated and I snapped "Big deal? You throw it once and you have to brag about it. Who does it all the time?!?!?!" And i went on and on scolding him....


With an innocent face and a soft voice, he asked "But i didn't do anything wrong, why am i being scolded?"

I paused. I thought for a bit. And I answered guiltily "I'm having PMS......."

He looked at me, and gave me an "It's okay look".

I felt slightly bad, but I wasn't done PMS-ing.....

So came his "punishment". I asked him to perform a simple yoga stunt which I couldn't do properly in class earlier on. Well, I was genuinely curious if he could do it actually. Reluctantly, he did it. Despite his halfhearted attempt, it lifted my mood. He was really tired that day, but he layan me anyway. I went to bed feeling better, thanks to him.


But no, PMS isn't for only a day.


2 days later, I attended my yoga studio's anniversary dinner. At the end of the event, each performer was presented with a bouquet of flowers. I looked at mine. And I looked around at others'. Mine was SO UGLY! Every other bouquet was so pretty. :( :( :( I drove home feeling EXTREMELY SAD. I kept wondering why I'm so unlucky. Why did i have to get that ugly bouquet. I even had to comfort myself by telling myself that flowers only last for a few days, after that they all die. They are only ugly for a couple of days! Honestly, I felt really stupid for even feeling depressed over flowers =.= Like seriously???? I was so aware of how stupid I was being, but that doesn't mean I can stop feeling sad. I couldnt'.

I reached home. My bf casually asked how my night went. I looked at him, and I really didn't feel like talking about it. But I answered his question honestly anyway. "I'm very sad."

My answer caught his attention. He was so curious, "WHY????"

At that moment, I was contemplating whether to mention it. "......It's a very stupid reason......."

"Just tell me!"

I blurted out "They gave me flowers and it's so ugly! :( :( :("

He asked in a ridiculous tone "Ha? You're sad because the flowers are ugly???? Where are the flowers?"

I defended myself, "But other peoples' flowers are SO BEAUTIFUL. LIKE SOOOO PRETTY. And mine is SO SUPER UGLY. Why did i get the ugly flowers??? :( :( :( Why am I so unlucky?????" "They are outside. I don't want to look at them......... :(:(:("

He ran out to look at the flowers. Then he came back, slightly laughing and said, "It's okay. They are just flowers"




I know sometimes I get so easily affected during my Premenstrual period. I think it's pretty ridiculous too, but those emotions are so real. They are so strong. I really can't help it. I'm just grateful that my bf is very understanding when it comes to this. Well, we have gone a long way, I guess he knows the drill. ;)



Kudos to all men who treat their ladies right when they PMS! Sincerely appreciate the effort. We acknowledge it, and we love you for it! <3

Are you real?

Have you ever felt like you've got everything yet you feel empty inside?

I rmb feeling this a lot back in my uni days while I was in India. I had a very good time back there, yet I could recall having many conversations about "Life" with Ming and Roselyn. I used to sigh a lot, thinking about life. What did a young adult like me have to worry about back then anyway? Nothing much other than studying, really. I rmb wondering why I felt that way. Why wouldn't I be content. And then I met my current bf who told me all about God. He said men can never be whole without God. I have always been curious to know if that would make all the difference, but part of me is holding back. It's not easy to embrace a whole new belief. I always told myself that I don't care if I were really thrown into the lake of fire for not believing in God, because I think it's unfair to use fear to guide someone into a religion. It's similar to a blackmail. Embrace me or you suffer. How is that even Godly in the first place? How am I suppose to accept it when all I feel is threat? I know I'm not a bad person, but if you think I deserve to be punished just for not knowing you, I rest my case. I mean no disrespect. I mean no insult. Maybe it's not my time yet. Or maybe its not meant for me. Ming said, God has a way to reach out to us. I suppose, if it's meant to be, it will.


As a kid, I used to ponder a lot over our very existence. We grow up having to study (which I didn't fancy much), then having to work (which didn't seem very appealing either), and in the midst of all that we have happy and devastating moments, we fall sick, we meet the love of our lives, start a family, have kids, lose the people we love, grow old and we die. We come...and then we go. I always wondered why did we bother even existing in the first place. Maybe to some people, experiencing the journey of life, all those various emotions and moments are worth all the pain that accompanies them. But for the longest time, I was seeking answers. And 1 day, my current bf who was merely a classmate back then asked me "Have you ever wondered why we exist?" OMG, I have asked myself that question my entire life!


I have always thought, meeting my bf was fate. There is an important role he plays in my life. We do not always see eye to eye, we have our good and bad times, but I know, he was sent into my life for a reason.