Because life is random..

It has been a while since I had a NIGHTMARE!


The last time was during my exams. I was telling my housemate, Cyn Tee some ghost stories. Actually, i wasn't even telling her anything. I just mentioned that I've heard of some ghost stories in seaview. I didn't feel comfortable elaborating because I knew i had to burn the midnight oil, all alone that night, or every night during my exams actually.


So that night I went to bed at 3am. My alarm was set to 5am. Not long after i was asleep, I felt sth on my right arm and a really coarse voice murmuring by my right ear. I couldn't move, scream nor even wake up. It felt so reaaalll! I woke up before my alarm went off, which was pretty rare because I normally would have to snooze it. When I was awake, I spent a couple of minutes figuring whether it was real or a dream. Then I realized that I was probably more afraid of failing my exams than of 'those', so who cares whether it's real or not!
Yea, it was a really miserable exam week. But I'm glad my effort has paid off. :)


This morning I had another nightmare... I dreamt of COLLEGE! >.< It was crowded and we were all rushing for class. It was a short scene, but enough to give me a heart attack. In reality, I've got like no OMR cases because of late submission of case reports. I actually took 1 long case and 2 short cases during my 3rd year but they won't be accepted anymore. Imagine going into 4th year with ZERO cases. Im as good as the 3rd year freshmen. As for Orthodontic dept, Kamini, Roselyn and I enjoyed the 3 weeks of liberty to the max. We reported in, stayed in college to chit chat for a bit and Chau-ed to sleep at home. Best 3 weeks of our 3rd year, even better than the 3 weeks in community dentistry since we actually had some work to do in CD. Anyway, bitter sweet bitter sweet. Here comes the bitter part. Really bitter. *spits* There's this new rule stating that we're supposed to hand in all the wire bendings before entering 4th year. Really screwed. I actually stayed back after my finals to learn how to bend the clasps and I even brought them back to KL. Haven't worked on them yet though half my Hol is already gone. Lets see if they'll return to penang untouched. Oh yea, another part of my nightmare this morn was a scene in CBN. It really upsets me sometimes thinking abt how I didn't graduate from Convent though I spent 4yrs there. All my friends, posts and fav school traditions...left hanging just like that. My jing bangs... Sigh.

Buena suerte~

I have reached the upper limit of my 100% BMI. Over which I'll be considered obese! Omg. My weight has always fluctuated pretty easily, but I've never been this heavy, ever! Everyone loses weight during exam period, Im probably the only one in this world who manages to put on so much of weight in this period. All my relatives are saying that Im chubby. Is it that obvious???? I thk i really need to exercise. Oh gosh. Just the thought of it already tires me.


I was wondering, why do people spend so much of money buying "numbers". Toto, da ma cai, etc. I started helping my grandma buy numbers long before i reached 18. I had to act mature, look fearless, but deep down i was always afraid of getting caught for gambling illegally. Oh well. Sacrifice for grandma. How noble can i be? Haha.

My grandma spends abt a hundred each time buying numbers. I always wonder how ppl can spend so much of money to buy a few pieces of paper. They're literally papers...only. She always tells me, she's old already, so just let her have a little bit of fun. Well i guess this is her entertainment. Gotta respect her 'hobby':)

Devika posted on Fb saying that she thinks our results Will be out today. Everybody must be freaking out now. I keep imagining how I'll react if i see the word 'fail' in my result. How am i going to tell my parents? Should i keep it from them, at least till Im done crying and ready to share my misery? >.< no no no no! I really want to pass. I need to pass!:( Alright, I can't write more. Mom is bugging me get off HER lap top. (I left my lap top with Ming) So, Chau people. WISH ME LUCKKKKK!!

there's no need reason for certain things...its just meant to be..

Ppl used to tell me that i hold the broom weirdly. I probably still do. I don't know.

I used to be involved in so many arguments abt how women shouldn't be the one doing house chores because they work these days and since they're the weaker gender, men should take over instead. Bla bla bla. Unbelievably, house chores is part of my life now. I grew up with a maid, not having to worry abt anything other than studies. I probably only held a broom once in every 2 years, when my maid's contract ended and we had to wait a couple of days before the new one arrived.

It all started in Argentina. We didn't have a maid so we had to take turns to help out with the chores. My goodness. I never knew it could be so tiring. Suddenly the house seemed SO BIG. I rather study for exams than to do house chores. Washing dishes was miserable because i used to take an hour to do it, while my entire family would be happily watching tv in the living room. In India we used to have cleaners so the was cool. Now, living in penang. Its back to doing house chores. I guess if u don't make it a habit, cleaning could be rather dreadful. And disgusting. I suppose I'm pretty ok with it now.

I used to sweep with the fan on, and wondered why it was so difficult. Haha how silly. Also, i never dared to touch the food residue on the sink. Squeezing the mop with bare hands??? Oh well, i've learnt to do those things now. Yr hands can be washed right? What's the big deal.

Last night i was suddenly missing the times when i could just walk off the dining table right after dinner. My sis and I were hanging ard the table for a couple of hours talking and we moved to the living room, still talking. When we were both finally sleepy, we decided to head upstairs for a hot shower before bed. HOWEVER, we realized that those dishes are still waiting for us! So regardless of how tired and lazy we felt, we dragged our feet twds the kitchen and cleaned up those mess. Life is pretty different now. Chores chores chores.

I woke up this morning feeling so uncomfortable. My tummy was so cramped. Still cramping actually. Some of u might know what that indicates. Anyway, so now i hope my friends don't pick any of these few days to go to sunway lagoon because i REALLY don't wanna miss the fun! :(

I brought home some story books and ortho wire bending work but never laid a finger on them yet. I wonder if I'll ever do. Those are for emergency time, e.g if i ever feel bored. But there's astro here with all channels, and good internet connection, seriously Jamie, do u thk U'll bend wires? *I need to get some work done before my 4th year! Screams*

Which reminds me, I need to first pass my 3rd year!:S Some said the result Will be out today. I doubt it. Probably by Friday? I really really really hope i could pass! >.< sigh..

All the best to those who're awaiting results.....all the best, Jamie.

I couldn't resist...

your musical fall,
along with the cooling breath,
lure me to where you stand..
I can hear you calling out for me,
You soothing RAIN!

Between us lies a GIGANTIC wall..
I couldn't climb,
but i can certainly read.
all over, the grafitti says...

"STOP DREAMING &
Get Back To Your Books!"

The fate of a lazy student during exam period~

If only u knew...

What a day.

2 and a half hours of night sleep; from 4.45am-7.15am.
Jumped off the bed, a short half an hour of washing up and getting dressed for the unwelcoming general medicine paper.
My eyes could hardly open, but they didn't have much of an option.
When i was writing the paper earlier today, it hit me that today's the birthday an old friend. Ytd was also the bday of a very important person to me. So was 2 Sundays back.
I feel deeply sorry that i don't have the time nor credit in my cell phone (for overseas calls) to give these people a good bday wish and some catching up.



Dear beloved childhood friend Daphne,
loving pet brother wei hsien &
dearly missed Luis,


A very happy (belated) birthday, from a friend far across the oceans.

There's so much going on in our lifes right now, that at times we forget to reach out for each other and convey our love. Im sorry that i suck at keeping in touch. I can assure u though, that i do think of and miss you guys from time to time.

The times we spent together, the laughters we had and all the silly things we did; how i wish they're still here.

Lots of love,
Jamie

Dear Jamie..

Exams. Farewell. Financial crisis. Bad hair days. Meals.

There're like a million of things bothering you.
There always will be.
So many things to do with so little time left.
I wonder if you can even make it through.
Somehow things always fall into place in the very end.
Luck luck luck.
I wish it works for you again this time.
If God didn't exist, you'd have dropped out long back.

P.s. Don't take things for granted. God only help those who help themselves.

Eat. Love. Pray.


Love,
Jamie

Once upon a time..

I vaguely rmb how things were btw us. It was perhaps once in a blue moon when u did come across my mind. I've always been occupied with too much. Much more than i can or should handle. But one fine day, i recklessly stumbled upon yr picture, one which tells me that u've finally let it all go. Perhaps we've both done so some time ago, but witnessing it with my own eyes stings a little. I couldn't help reminiscing the good ol' times we once shared. The relationship we built, short yet so promising. I never wanted to look back, as the fact that it could never come back always slaps me in the face. I always tell myself, don't cry because its over, smile because it happened. I used to look at our pictures every now and then. I haven't done so in ages. The other day as i was looking at the picture of u and yr lover, i accidently saw tiny icons of our pictures on the side bar. I stared at them for a tiny while. I never had the courage to click on them. I didn't want to allow old memories to fill me up again, leaving me in pain at the end of the day. I wish, i really really wish i could be there on the day you exchange vows, as this is one promise i've made when we were still close. I most probably would have to break it, for the simple reason that i can never afford the flight ticket. Whatever it is, i wish i will always be one person u'll never wipe out completely off yr memory, because, i know i can never do so with you. Its better to have loved and lost, than never have loved at all. Many years have past, yet I'm still standing by this principle.


Love is everywhere. Why bother dwelling on the past, when u have the present to live, the future to hope.